The Paris post...finally.
I am sorry it has taken so long, but I hope you can understand why after reading this post. I am a new woman!
First I need to admit something, that many of you (my friends and family know) I am was a recluse of sorts, socially defunct and quite afraid of doing anything for myself.
It was only a few weeks before I flew to France that I picked up the courage to go to Starbucks and order a coffee on my own.
Over the last 13 years I have stopped doing many things, working, socialising, driving and pretty much anything that could determine me to be an independent or confident woman.
I have missed out on numerous running events, social outings and even friendships because of my fear of meeting new people, my extreme shyness has made me appear awkward or snobbish and before moving to Bangkok, the only times I would venture out of my home alone was to grocery shop.
I didn't tell anyone but I was petrified about Paris. I wanted to cancel. The fear was so great that for nights before hand I struggled to sleep.
The flight over was quite nice, I started to relax a little and felt quite excited.
However when I arrived it all went pear shaped. I managed to get my luggage and find the right area for the shuttle I had booked to take me to the hotel but they did not turn up.
Three hours later and numerous phone calls to the husband asking him to please get me home and the shuttle service who said they were on the way my phone went flat.
I knew I could get a taxi but had read online before traveling that it was not recommended.
I was petrified. I started to cry. It was quite pathetic.
I finally realised that I had to do something, not only about the situation; but my life and the way I am wasting it.
I went to the information counter and enquired about transport. I was shown a taxi ramp and a bus terminal.
A bus. Another thing I have not done in the last 13 years since losing my independence is use public transport.
I chose the bus.
It stopped at the Arc de Triomphe and I took this photo as I walked away to the taxi ramp.
However, suddenly feeling brave, and with map in hand, I walked past the Cab's and spent the next 45 minutes walking through the street of Paris with my suitcase, reading a map (I had no idea I would be able to do that) and finding my own way to my hotel.
Every step was like an epiphany of sorts.
I can do this.
I can be normal.
I am courageous.
I just got on a bus in a busy foreign city for crying out loud.
I am super freaking woman!
That's crazy I know. But it's how I felt and it's how I have felt ever since.
I checked into my hotel, by myself. I have stayed in more hotels than I remember but have never done the checking in.
I had now started my two day adventure.
I spent the day doing a bus tour, walking through the Latin quarter, visiting cathedrals, seeing where Marie Antoinette was kept captive, executed and laid to rest, I perused beautiful book stands, I bought tea, chocolate and purses.
I woke early the next day. Had a perfect cup of tea and then waited for Jean-Charles of Paris Running Tours to pick me up.
For the next 2 and a half hours I re-explored the city with a guide. We ran over 16km and it was fascinating.
Since arriving home I have made some positive changes in my life. I have started to drive again, I have met new people, I have run in a group, I have started making friends.
It's not that scary.
I quite like it.